im utterly speechless here.... and i want to get somethings off my chest if im allowed to... if this is off topic it can be moved to the correct forum, i just really am unsure where to post it.... major apologies in
i was awoken this morning by my dad and literally had to pinch myself to see if i was still sleeping..... sometime in the middle of the night, my cousin, who is my best and probably only remaining friend, was involved in a hit & run while he was standing outside of his suv checking out a noise he heard. it was more than likely by a drunk driver (what else... **** this world), and the guy was going over 70 on the kennedy. my cousins girlfriend is still in shock and didnt get any of the guys info or anything, and hasnt been of much help up to this point as is.
my cousin is on a ventilator/breathing machine and one of his legs will likely have to be amputated..... this is a kid who is highly active, and 90% of his work consists of labor. he is 32, and his whole life has basically been an uphill struggle pretty much to get to this point. he bought his first new car only two weeks ago.. (although he wasnt driving it lastnight). one of his jobs was actually to take care of my brother, who has downs syndrome. he formed a great bond with my brother during the time which they were sharing...
i really dont know why im posting all of this..... i usually am very against sharing personal information on message boards...... but i really have no one to turn to anymore. he was really one of the few (well, more like the only person) people i had left. my life has been borderline chaotic lately. 2 days ago i was arrested for the 2nd time in a year (i wont share why, i dont think thats neccesary), im battling a pretty severe drug addiction, and my anxiety and depression is at an all time high....... but i really dont care about any of that; i just want my cousin mike to be ok.... it really puts things into perspective. Life is so precious.
i know he may have to walk with a prosthetic.... the thing that fears me is he and i have even had convos, where he has talked of offing himself should he ever wind up in a situation like this. and low and behold, look what happens. we talked about this as recent as two weeks ago.... if/when he comes off the ventilator, and if he needs lots of therapy, im going to be there every step of the way. I'm going to help that guy so much... hes meant the world to me these past 2 years as corny as that sounds, but he really has. he's been my mentor.
its so screwed up... he texted me before the cubs game... asked me if i was going to watch the flubs.... i asked him if he was going to watch the sux tomorrow.... and then this happens. I realize I'm probably just rambling now, but it really does help to get this stuff off of my chest. Even if no one will probably read through all of it
ill end this now.... but please keep my family in your throughts and for those who are religious, prayers.... it would mean so much to me. im so scared right now..... like i said, i guess until something like this happens to you, you really dont understand it as much. my cousin is such a good person, such a hard worker, and did not deserve this at all. if you knew him, you'd understand what I mean..... such a good kid...... and he cares so much about my brother.... it's so unfortunate how cruel this world can be